I’m smack dab in the middle of the dreaded 2 week wait. IUI #3 went off without a hitch, though J’s numbers were the lowest yet. I’m not sure if they will ask for a urology consult if this IUI is a bust or not. It’s still above where they would like to see them for an IUI (10M count, 70% motility, no idea on morphology as they didn’t have the numbers at our IUI), but still the lowest ones they’ve seen for us yet. Last IUI, the morphology was at 1%, so I’ll be anxious to see what that number is as well.
I’m torn between wanting to be hopeful that this one worked, and wanting to be realistic that it was a bust. J and I had a long talk about IVF and what that would include this past weekend, and I’m happy to say we at least came to a few conclusions. Up until now, I’ve been worried about whether we’d go with IVF if IUIs didn’t work, primarily because I was worried J and I would disagree over what to do with unused embryos/eggs. I am fully open to putting them up for adoption, or donating them to science (as an end resort), but I am not ok with destroying them. While I know that IUI/IVF are against Catholic doctrine, I’ve been ok with the procedures (from a personal level) because we weren’t destroying “life.” I feel that, if we had fertilized embryos, I wouldn’t be ok with having them destroyed. Partly due to my personal beliefs, but also due to the fact that I couldn’t bear to destroy something that so many others need so desperately (just by going through these past two years struggling with infertility and personally knowing so many women with egg quality issues, along with MFI). I was 100% willing to donate any excess eggs, as well as fertilized embryos, but was worried J wouldn’t be on board. After talking about it last weekend, I was happy to find out that J is completely ok with adopting out the embryos, and of course the eggs are completely up to me. It was SUCH a relief to know that this wasn’t going to be something we couldn’t see eye to eye on.
I was determined that, if we couldn’t come to an agreement on the unused eggs and embryos, that would stop our path towards IVF. I didn’t want to play the odds that we wouldn’t have any leftovers, knowing that we wouldn’t be able to agree on what to do with them. Luckily, that doesn’t appear to be the case, so now my only reservations with IVF are strictly medical (as opposed to both medical AND moral), and I will speak with my RE about them, when we get to that point. Talk about a weight off my shoulders!
So…that’s where we are. 4DPIUI, and I can start testing in a week. Please keep me in your prayers in the hopes that this worked, as that would surely be a miracle!