Seven months into our wait, and it’s getting harder around the holidays. To top it off, the pregnancy announcements just keep coming, and I often find myself questioning if this is ever going to happen for us. I know lots of people wait much longer than this, but it doesn’t make the pill any easier to swallow.
We are going to sign with a second agency in the new year. We love our agency that we’re working with now, but we’re hoping to increase our chances for a faster match. Hopefully this will do that…I just hate the financial aspect of it all. I feel bad spending so much money on this; even though it’s very important to us both to be parents, I still feel so much guilt when it comes to spending money. You’d think, after years of fertility treatments, I’d be used to it, but sadly not.
In other news, Thanksgiving was lovely. We traveled to Connecticut to visit friends that we made while living in the Netherlands (they lived there as well and moved back to the United States shortly after us), and it was fantastic. I ate too much, drank too much, laughed too much (ok, not really), and just relaxed. It was a long drive (13.5 hours each way), but totally worth it. Now that we’re back, this week will be spent decorating for Christmas and finishing up the shopping. I love the holidays, but there is a bit of a damper on my spirit these past few years. I’m trying to focus on the positive and keep praying for a Christmas miracle!