I am finally in the mindset that this break from TTC is a good thing. I was worried, after our last BFP, that I’d be chomping at the bit to get started up again. I was worried that I’d be incapable of just relaxing and letting things come, constantly worrying about “what’s next” and whether we’d ever get pregnant.
I’m happy (relieved, maybe?) to say that I’m in a really good place right now. I recently accepted a new position in my company, so I’m going to be embarking on a new career path. It’s actually going back to the area where I worked in Europe (Sales and Marketing) so it’ll be more of a homecoming than anything else. I think it’ll be really good for me, as I’m comfortable (though still challenged) in the role, and I really enjoy the work. Plus…international travel is on the horizon! In the new job, I’ll be traveling to Asia a few times a year, so that’s very exciting for me!
I’m definitely realizing the wisdom in taking this break, however. I’m in a much better place, mentally, especially knowing the stress that will come with the transition to the new job. Even though I’m comfortable with the subject area, it’ll still take time to get up to speed on things, and I’m glad I won’t be juggling that ball along with the heavy weight that is infertility treatments and IVF cycles.
So, there are big changes coming up. I’m excited for them, and ready for the change, but still nervous in my ability to meet the challenges head-on. I think I got it, but only time will tell. In the meantime, I’m going to enjoy this time with J as a child-free couple and really embrace our relationship as it is right now…just us. Hopefully the summer is as fantastic as I’m planning for it to be!